Upset

darn..I'd always made my life difficult
all the plans are set very pact..ad made m'self crazy

coz of some condition, I'm now stuck in middle and waiting to die..
..watta h***!!

If this situation can be solve by gaining help, that will be done.
that the only way I can think for..

if there is worse situation...either quit or being criticized...
..i didn't liked to be looked down, yes, i'm afraid to be.

...forget all about it, handle the test first, then think again, OK?!
focus on your ways first...other than that just leave it until you settle.

I know you can do it. if you cant who can do it for you?
and also there are friends along with you, mentally...they will understand you.